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Welp, dragged my butt in to work this morning. Didn't want to- but really really had to. Non-paid sick days do not make the bank account happy. Bleah.

Still sick though, and really wish this would just go away.

Yesterday started out okay, beau came down to see me (usual Wednesday plans), but then somehow it all started to go downhill. I wasn't in the best of moods, being sick aside, and he hasn't been getting enough sleep in general. *sigh* So there was crankiness all around, and ended with him leaving abruptly to head back up to Lansing to get some sleep. Can't say as I blame him, but it almost feels like we had a fight- when we absolutely didn't. Oi. I feel guilty for having him come see me (though he wanted to) when I know that he doesn't tend to get enough sleep when he does. Working nights just isn't a good thing for him- especially when everyone in his life is on a day shift schedule.

After he left, I finished eating my dinner, and DK came to join me. We were in the 'little living room' (or Mighty's and mine) chatting. I guess she figured that I needed the company when she saw the tears. Guess I kinda did. Though there's another thing, I've been crying like crazy the past couple of months. This really isn't like me. But when I get tired, or let my guard down, I just cry and can't really make myself stop. Usually the stuff I'm crying about isn't important- really. Though that said, I guess it's a good thing that I've got the people in my life that I've got- I can actually let my guard down around them and cry and explain and not worry that they're going away. I do usually apologize to the beau for being a basketcase - he has the dubious honor of being the person I most trust and it's more like 'guard, what guard?' around him. As a result he sees more of the anger, frustration, annoyance, sadness, happiness, pleasure, tears, etc. than most other people. As DK said once 'I thought I was reserved, but you've got it down to an art.'

And now since I feel like I'm repeating myself, I think I should go get some work done...

John Kerry

Hmm, works for me. According to shawnj "It's a counterattack without that slimy pessimistic aftertaste."

( John Kerry, speaking to the International Association of Fire Fighters. )